Friends

This blog is for a friend, you know who you are.

Things are going pretty well. I have a birthday party for a friend tonight and I'm excited for that. Other than that life as been pretty low key. I hope everyone else is doing well.

I was watching a Dawson's Creek today and was going to quote it here, but it got erased from the tivo before I could post it. It was really good though.

Gay Christian

I recently found this site and just being able to discuss stuff has helped me a lot. It isn't specifically for Mormons but it is a gay christian network. Please go and be supported.

www.gaychristian.net

Church

I wish I could find a church to go to that I can be myself and they still love me and accept me.

Hmmmm

Have you ever been attracted to someone, maybe dated them, but when it's all over and you have some space there go... What the hell was that about?

Old Friends

So, I've been really... I don't even know the word, frustrated, hurt, sad, indifferent, latly. I feel distanced from my "friends" and I don't know why. No I do. I just don't understand why. I started seperating myself from these people when I started to see them exlcude me and another friend. Then I don't know if I'm changeing or they are and who is doing it for the better or worse, but we suddenly lost all relationship. I wish we could get things back, but I don't know where it went wrong.

Being Alive

By: Stephen Sondheim


Somebody hold me too close
Somebody hurt me too deep
Somebody sit in my chair
And ruin my sleep
And make me aware of being alive

Somebody need me too much
Somebody know me too well
Somebody pull me up short
And put me through hell
And give me support for being alive-being alive
Make me alive, make me confused
Mock me with praise, let me be used
Vary my days, but alone is alone, not alive!

Somebody crowd me with love
Somebody force me to care
Somebody make me come through
I'll always be there
As frightened as you to help us survive,
Being alive, being alive, being alive, being alive

A New Year

"...but sometimes I think you have to remove yourself from the situation, from the person. There are people that can hurt you too much, so much that their self-destructive life patterns are a threat to your ability to be the person that you want to be, your ability to continue supporting the other people in your life. " ~ Protean in Utah

I read this in a blog that I read regularly. I was shocked to see someone put in words a situation I have grown to understand so well. It hurts to let go of someone but is sometimes nessasary. As we have started a new year I have been thinking a lot about the last fe years and my life. 2004 was a big year in personal development as the year I came out of the closet.
2005 was the year of getting use to myself and discovering who I really am.
I see 2006 as the year where I start to fully be me all the time and TRY not to hide.

I hope that I can look back at this coming year and be happy with who I am and how far I have come.