Old Friends
So, I've been really... I don't even know the word, frustrated, hurt, sad, indifferent, latly. I feel distanced from my "friends" and I don't know why. No I do. I just don't understand why. I started seperating myself from these people when I started to see them exlcude me and another friend. Then I don't know if I'm changeing or they are and who is doing it for the better or worse, but we suddenly lost all relationship. I wish we could get things back, but I don't know where it went wrong.
posted by Seth R at 1:27 PM
2 Comments:
I'm a little unclear as to the kind of friends you're referring to. Do you mean heterosexual friends? Do they know you're gay?
In the case of straight friends who don't know you're gay, it could be that subconsciously you're distancing yourself from them because of the awkwardness you feel regarding your continually emerging homosexuality.
In the case of straight friends who do know you're gay, the same subconscious distancing could be taking place, and/or those friends are recognizing changes in your personality or interests, signalling that you and they are headed down different paths.
Right before I accepted my homosexuality, I was anxious, worried that I'd lose all my straight friends. As it turned out, I didn't lose any of them; they all were supportive of me.
However, as I became more comfortably gay and made new gay friends, I found myself hanging out less and less with my straight friends. It wasn't a sad thing, or anything I regretted; it just happened.
Anyway, those are a few thoughts, for whatever they're worth.
Dave
I feel for you. I understand that it is hard to balance sometimes when we want one thing and life gives us something else. This may just be an unsettling time, and you might find that this problem fixes itself. Have faith in yourself that you are an amazing person and regardless of what happens in your life, many many people will organically come into your life and want to be your friend.
By the way, thank you for what you wrote on my blog. I appreciate your words of wisdom. It is nice to know that there are people out there that care enough to say something important and meaningful. It means a lot.
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