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So I haven't been on for a while and sad as it may be, don't really have much to talk about. I saw the guy that I had dated a few days ago and he told me about his dating this girl (I had read it in a blog he didn't remember I had the address to before). As I walked up to his door I was kind of uncomfortable with the whole thing, then he answered, and Maybe I really am shallow, but when I looked at him my first thought was, "You wanted to date him why?" Is that horrible?


So a very good friend of mine is Mormon, she and her husband invite new people in their ward over for dinner as they come. Sunday they had a new couple over. The female part of this couple is the sister of a boy from my past. Things didn't go well with him. So my friend and his sister talked about what happened between boy and me and now I may finally have some closure. From what the sister said, the boy has been saying quite untrue things about this situation. It's sad to me still because I really did love him and would have been there for him through anything. He was JUST a friend, like really, I would have liked more and he didn't and I had to deal with that but we never dated or anything. What we had was a friendship that was a pivotal role in my life. True, it felt more like a boyfriend that best friend at the time and it certainly felt like a break up when we parted but we never had anything. I still don't know how I feel about everything. I have a bunch of friends that are in contact with him but pretend like he has fallen off the face of the planet when I am around. They all tell me I'm better off without him, and I know they have good intentions but I don't think I have actually dealt with this whole thing yet and I sadly don't have people I can work through it with because they all either know him or just want me to forget him. You know,Sometimes I really want to make a name for myself just to rub it in his face... Is that horrible?

Well, I should take off. Until next time.

"I think, sometimes you have to lose somebody completely before you can figure out what they really mean to you." ~ Dawson Leary